Quitting

I’m not looking for sympathy. I’m not trying to drum up encouragement. I just think I should tell you how it is or maybe how it was. If I had typed this a day or two ago it would’ve been how it is and you would’ve maybe slightly concerned.

I was called on to be flexible one time more than I was ready to cope with and I went into quit mode. My thoughts were as follows: I want to quit being flexible for everyone else. I want to quit spending so much time in the car. I want to quit living in this house. I want to quit trying to feed my kids veggies. I want to quit blogging. I want to quit my job. I want to quit being nice when I don’t feel like it. I want to quit not being truly known by so many people. I want to quit living here….

I tried to sort out my feelings and figure out why I had snapped.

Other than the general effort of everyday life, I decided I really just want a haircut and knowing a bigger purpose for living here would be nice.

Truly, I don’t spaz like that often. That in itself is an act of God. My life isn’t horrible, but when I have the “quit moments” I see the times when I’m living content and positive are only because of God’s grace and work in my heart.

Don’t worry or try to come rescue me. I won’t quit, at least some of those things. I don’t really have an option for most of them; and after pondering, I see the consequences of quitting are worse than continuing. So I will press on.

How about you? Ever want to quit? Why don’t you? What keeps you pushing forward?

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14 thoughts on “Quitting

  1. Oh Julie! I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. Do you think maybe counseling would help you sort out your feelings? That’d be more car time I know but just getting real and talking about stuff is helpful I think.

    Do you and Brad have a weekend away planned anytime soon? That always helps me too!

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  2. Julie, I have fought discouragement lately, too. But I have to squarely face several facts: 1. Quitting is a selfish thing to do, partly because it always makes someone(s) else have to give more. 2. The devil’s promise that we would be happier if we quit is a lie. He specializes in half-truths and in lies. 3. Serving others does bring fulfillment. That said, sometimes we do have an emotional overload and something has to change – or we need some time away. We can babysit! =) Love you.

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      • I thot when I re-read my comments, that they sounded kind ‘preachy’! =( Like I had the answers….But I know you know me and some of what we’ve faced. I certainly want you to know you are NORMAL! And it’s good to be open cuz look at the support you get!! Wasn’t that worth it? Remember that His “strength is made perfect in weakness”.

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  3. I think we all have times that we feel like quitting. I don’t think you are alone in that respect! There are days I wonder if I am fully equipped to take on life in general – yeesh. But when I’m feeling blue and on the verge of giving up, I give myself (myself is a key word here!) some time to add up my blessings and think about women who have gone before me with so much less, whether that be conveniences, love or support. It helps me put myself into perspective. That being said, sometimes it’s not as easy to be the daisy of the day. I often think on these: 1. Bloom where you are planted, Roxy. 2. It’s easy to get caught up in letting satan tell me I am unworthy and I have to get out if that mindset as it is very seductive thinking. And 3. Get out in the sun! 🙂 And sometimes, something does have to change and that’s not wrong or weak. Think about what you can change and don’t be afraid to share with someone you trust. I tend to keep all of those emotions inside and when I finally let them out (usually too late) I often feel so much better. I’m no therapist, so what I have to offer you here is just understanding and encouragement! And I’m typing this in the car so who knows what kind of crazy typos I have – yikes!

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  4. Yep, I certainly have been where you are…but I didn’t quit (for a lot of the same reasons you named – consequences) and I know you won’t either….You hang in there Julie – You have a great walk with God and as long as you stay in the Word – cry and fuss as needed, but keep your eyes on Jesus. You will do great. I love you – been where you are, and still living to tell about it. 🙂

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    • Cry and fuss as needed… I need to figure out that balance. I don’t want to fuss because I don’t want to be negative but keeping it in doesn’t always help either. By the way, I planted daffodils this week! That was therapeutic.

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  5. Thank you for your honesty, Julie! I think it is posts like this that make every reader go, “I am so glad I am not the only one!” I have a book suggestion to follow the one you gave me (can’t wait to check that one out BTW) “Unglued” by Lysa Turkerst (pretty sure I spelled that wrong).

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  6. Well Well Julie! i am glad to hear that you have finally figured out that a good haircut will solve most anything! LOL
    You know that I’m in this boat with you. So i will help you keep paddling. love you

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